He’s acting shy, looking for an answer.
Rod Stewart, Do Ya Think I’m Sexy
Aint Talkin’ Bout Love — Van Halen
I’ve been to the edge.
I’m really not what you would normally describe as a shy person. I have a history of pushing boundaries and upsetting normal conventions for the sake of being provocative. There’s a part of my personality that is deliberately oppositional for the sake of being contrary. I like to argue. I like it best when I’m wrong because I can change. But there is a matter of decorum to consider and I am an observer of the classical forms of engagement. This creates situations where I do not feel I can be my true self especially where it regards professional matters. There’s a fine line that I walk in this world to maintain a certain balance. I’m currently experiencing a period of rapid exponential growth and the wrong move made at the wrong time could threaten what I’m building for myself. Navigating these waters is an adventure. While I am thankful for every moment I get, there are some things that stir me. It seems I’m {not} beyond helping myself after all.
I am the greatest there has ever been.
Kenny Rogers, The Greatest
She’s So High — Tal Bachman
Like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite.
It’s not like I haven’t put in the effort. When I compare myself to who I was ‘Yesterday’ I find marked and measured improvement. I’m nowhere near where I want to be, but I’m moving roughly in that direction. I’d wager that’s worth something pretty pretty. It may be true that nice guys finish last but at least I am going to finish. I’m also really not that nice, though I do put on a good show. It really is all about timing. To everything (turn, turn, turn) there is a season (turn, turn, turn)…
But lately I am beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel.
Incubus, Drive
Drive Me Wild — Sawyer Brown
Sometimes.
I have no idea what the future holds. I’m living day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year. I have an agenda, complete with step-by-step action plans, brainstorms, and more data than I could ever process if I had a thousand lifetimes. The biggest problem I face on any given day is getting started. It can be like pulling teeth to get myself to do exactly what I plan for in any given day. I believe part of this stems from the convenient number of distractions I face coupled with an inconvenient number of options. It’s been said by people smarter than me that real creative freedom often comes with limitation. If you give a person all the colors in the world to start with, it is likely to freeze progress. But if you start by giving them only a few, it makes it easier for them to produce higher quality art faster. A guitarist in a magazine I once read said the key was to pick one thing to master. I think that’s at least worthy of a moment’s thought.
Who wants a drink, bitch?
😉
Play That Funky Music — Wild Cherry
Movin’ to the groove.
I really think you have to enjoy yourself a little. If you aren’t finding some measure of joy in your life, you are bound to be doing something wrong. In the movie Zombieland, the hero lived by a strict set of rules that allowed him to successfully live as a human being in a world populated almost entirely by zombies. Rule #32 was a particularly wise proverb in my estimation because it admonishes us to enjoy the little things. I’ve made it a custom to look for things I like in people rather than the flaws. Indeed, I think there’s even a psalm that says something to that effect. (Psalms 130:3) Look for the silver lining in every situation. Sometimes you can find tools in the most unlikely places, but you have to look.
That’s me in the corner. That’s me in the spotlight losing my religion.
REM, Losing My Religion
Crazy — Gnarls Barkley
Do you think you’re in control?
Who do you think you are? Who do you think people think you are? Did you know that people will tell you what they think of you if you let them? It can be quite entertaining, but the real utility comes with altering your own perceptions. What other people think shouldn’t have any undue effect on your personal self-image, but it does have a tangible effect on the world. People act differently based on the things they think. Even more to the point, people act irrationally based on the the things that they think. So if someone has got your character confused in his, her, or its head, you are going to experience dissonance during your interaction. Communication is the way to clear out all obstacles. Why is it so hard to talk to some people?
‘Cause I gotta have faith.
George Michael, Faith
In the End — Linkin Park
It doesn’t even matter.
That’s all for now.
Until next time,
Thank you;